I'm glad you've found your inner strength.

That's code for "I'm not buying it."

So far, my journey through the wilderness with the Lord has been easy. So easy that I've been feeling like I've been cheating. Not that I haven't had nausea or problems with my guts. And I'm not really looking forward to getting another dose of chemo on Friday.

But God has really been blessing me! Friends, family, well-wishers pray for me. God's Word has been sweeter than Starbuck's Frappuccino. And, during the hard times, the sense of the Spirit's nearness has brought me peace and contentment that I never could imagine.

Having cancer gives you the right to talk about things that you normally oughtn't discuss in the work place. I shared some of my experiences of how the Lord is accompanying me on my journey with three coworkers today.

Janet: "Praise the Lord."

R---: "The key is to have that sense of optimism."

P---: "I'm glad you found that source of inner strength."

I'm saddened by the responses of R--- and P---. I was speechless. They don't get it. They clearly are not Christ's.

I called a friend asking him what I should do. He said, "You don't have to be preachy. Those guys wouldn't know what to do with it. I don't doubt that God will be using you throughout this journey."

That's both comforting and disconcerting. It may mean that God will allow things to worsen so that He can show His grace operating under pressure.

Whatever happens, I have nowhere else to turn. He is my Rock, my Shepherd. He is the Potter and I am his willing clay.